Was it ever easy, will it ever be simple for me. All I do is feel my stupid emotions constricting my air way, completly choking me even when I am not trying to speak. I feel like I am on fire, my lips, my body, all that I am all I have thought and seen. I am nothing to you! Am I of any importance to you if so how would i make a difference in our pathetic lives. Living a lie? You tell me who to be, who I am, I am not that girl, not that person and I never will be. What gives you the authority to tell me otherwise. I know who I am and if you do not care for me then SCREW YOU! How could you bring me down this low, lower than either of us have been. Because of you, or was it me do i forgot or do I choose simply not to remember, you never loved me. Not with her arms wrapped around your waist, or was it the red lipstick on your lips that you did not even bother to wipe from your scum like face. I never was the one to say I did not love you I didnt say tht damnit your supposed to be my redeemer. Dont you see what i am doing do u not get it I have to put it on a silver plater hand it to u staple it to your face... what do you not understand about the three words I just said. Most importantly why can you not say them back. Am I that superficial, shallow, cold hearted a mean person. Am I to ugly or to fat, my body is not praiseable or a topic of discussion. I am nothing to you, then why do you continously continue to appear in my life. Is it just with a matter of chance, I will never have my fairy tale ending.