I was reflecting on my overall year, as cliché as it may sound I discovered that I did not improve in my philosophies, or make progress towards weight loss, or find a person who would love me for me. But I learned to love myself; I said it is okay to eat what makes you happy, and to stop putting yourself in these twisted positions where you have to choose between lust followed by shame or so called love. I won't hold my feelings in the way I have done for years. I don't want to miss out on opportunities that I may have in the future with someone who I like or love. I want to find happiness for myself, and I will stop where I have been searching because I have left that place crushed and defeated by false promises, and lies. I am worth more than that, I am beautiful inside and out and I will find the love that I deserve. I will have the warm hugs that I have so longed for, the smiles I can share, and the tears of joy I can shed with him. All I have to do is remain optimistic for the year of 2015.