Tomorrow is what is on everyones mind. Perhaps the food itself, maybe the family or the feeling of having that along with the Thanks you have to share (either within or spoken). Just think about this for a moment, What am I thankful for? What should I be thankful for? Why would I be thankful? Family, friends, having good food on the table. There are so many people who wish they could have something close to what most of the people in the United States have, not just on Thanksgiving but yearly. Be happy, enjoy other people's company and its ok to eat :). Theres always the day after to be remorseful for that extra slice of pie. I wish you, and your familys a very Happy Thanksgiving.
So I was watching a movie today, the title was "The Fat Boy Chronicels", I felt that my heart was touched. It felt as though it was me, (the main character) who was being beaten up, bullied and picked on. Thats kind of funny actually, because it really was me. I found myself enduring these dispositions. I felt as though I wanted to cry, aside from some of the cheesey scenes. It went something along this story line... The boy has difficulties at school, there are problems that he is faced through his friends. He does not know what to do completly and he finds himself in the midst of this misfortune, not just for himself but others as well.
He was called names and made fun of such as "piggy" (the character from the novel 'The Lord of the Flies'), and other hurtful names. He was made fun of by more popular students and people. I do not mean to go on about this movie but more people should watch it. I am a huge promoter of anti-bullying, rather to promote an advocated life of happiness, compasion and more of an understanding to and for others. This will happen in any school, and perhaps in other forms, as well as an estate or place of business (home/work). If anyone is out there struggling feel free to leave comments and I will respond to you as soon as possible :). You are important and I care There are always people who will put you down , but you need to realize that you are worth more than that. Have the self respect and descency to love yourself more than what others say about you. Even if this sounds corny and stupid it is not, no matter what people say do not listen to them. Instead use their criticisim to boost your self confidence. For instance say that a person was to call you a nasty degrading name for a female, yes the w, and b word. It made me feel like the s word. But why should I let that stop me from persuing my thoughts, my dreams and especially my future. No, this is the scene where I put my foot down forcefully and say "Enough is Enough!" This quote applies to all, the person who may be the victim and the other who is the tormentor.
Watch... one day the tormentor will become the victim in their own dispicable relm, their trap, then.. and only then will they realize the humility and pain they have caused you. No matter the brutal honest truth that comes from my mouth it is correct, it is their own fault, they had it coming and revenge is such a sweet sorrow. Despite this example, and/or graphic process of thinking, F..., what people say about you! Your thoughts about yourself should be the only thing that you care about. Why should you have to please others? Put yourself down for others to look better, to sit in a higher light than you. You know very well that you do not deserve that, noone deserves that no matter their circumstance and position in it. Never belittle yourself for anyone's benefit. Why? Because you respect yourself enough to say No! "Enough is Enough!" and "Revenge is such sweet sorrow". (remember this) For me to say I love you and become rejected in a matter of a blink of an eye, even though we had a strong fundamental history together, how could I have meant nothing to you. It felt as if I had recieved my first kiss from you, that momentum that made my heart soar to the heavens. I couldn't bear the thought of knowing that another girl was with you, even the thought of her falling in love with you scared me it brought my knees and I faultered. My flaws now visible for all the world to view, for the laughter of all, the public's pleasure, perhaps it was meant for your own selfish amuzement. It was just the fact that I felt myself slipping into you, you decieved me, made me feel beautiful and special., but for what purpose.
I cannot deal with losing you, it is as if I can no longer breath, my oxygen has escaped my now collapsed in lungs. To hear you say you love her and not me. It makes me feel insecure, as though I am not enough for you, she is much more beautiful than I , more athletic, and has a flawless apperance. But you do not give the opportunity to show case my personality. But what difference would that make. Whats done is done (in the play of Macbeth), don't all of us know that. How could a person love someone like me? I am a vulnerable, sorry insecure, unconfident soul. Is the rest of the world incapeable towards my thoughts and my feelings, or just plain ignorant. But I am not alone there are plenty of people who feel this way and those of the opposite sex as me as well. We all have a common goal in mind we all are in search of finding that perfect someone, the person we want to share the rest of our lives with. Why must we suffer in order to do this, love me, don't love me (its ur choice), would it matter or be signifigant in any way. Perhaps in my mind, in my heart I give my love willingly to those who deserve it and those who do not. Besides that fact why can't he love me, why can'the see that I can try to perform the way she can, and try ten times as hard to successfully accomplish all she can. ...................I feel like this........ I guess I am the fool because exactly what you told me was true I will continue to come back to you because thats what love is ur apperance means nothing to me in regards to you as a person I will take all the moments I have to be with you even if I am not with you, thats how I know I love you. |